Passion and being passionate towards something.

Halo selamat pagi, cyber-peeps!

Apa kabar? 

Yang sudah doing self-reflection, sudah agak lebih kenal diri masing-masing dong ya? Kalau belum, gih mari coba luangkan waktu sebentar buat sekedar bicara dua arah sama dirinya masing-masing, coba gali lagi, coba kenali lagi, coba cari tahu yang belum diketahui. It literally works loh, agak lebih tenang dan lega, bahkan bisa sampe nangis kalo bener-bener lagi niat self-reflection sama me and myself nya masing-masing (well, kalo gue sih) hehe. 

Kalau udah, yuk sama-sama semangat buat menemukan dan menjalankan life-pathways kita masing-masing. Jalan yang seperti apa, ke arah mana, dan dengan siapa kita berjalan. Semangat!

anyway, kali ini gue se lagi in the mood itu nulis tentang passion and being passionate towards something. 

Menurut gue, Passion adalah sesuatu yang kita ga pernah bosan untuk ngelakuinnya. Passion adalah dimana kita bakal ngorbanin segala hal untuk mencapai itu. Passion adalah dimana kita ga mikirin untung dan rugi. Passion adalah ketika kita ngelakuin hal itu gitu aja dan lupa dengan hal yang lain.

Nah, ngomong-ngomong masalah passion, jelas gue sendiri punya passion dan being passionate towards something. 

Tapi passion bisa aja semata-mata nambah, berubah atau baru aja disadarin abis doing self-reflection. That's why I was trying to relate both self-reflection and knowing that passion we currently have, at the beginning. Kayak misalkan passion gue dari dulu adalah bicara rather than menulis. Yha, bisa dibuktikan kalau mungkin ada waktu kita ketemu hehehe. Buat gue, bicara itu media belajar, media membuka jendela wawasan, jembatan untuk memberi dan menampung aspirasi. Bicara yang gue maksud, both as in method and content nya. Method itu tentang tata cara serta etika berbicara dan content itu tentang bagaimana atau dengan apa kita bicara, misalkan dengan bahasa tubuh kah, dengan media tertentu kah atau dengan bahasa negara-negara tertentu. Buat gue, bicara as in method and content itu sangat passionate! Dan jangan salah, dengan bicara, kita bisa dapet banyak input dari siapapun yang kita ajak bicara, yha siapapun. Ga cuman bapak-ibu pejabat berpangkat tinggi yang bisa jadi sumber buat pembicaraan, mas-mbak, om-tante, bapak-ibu, bahkan adik-adik dari berbagai kalanganpun bisa ngasih input. Karena buat gue, bicara sama orang, nambah perspektif lain akan melihat suatu hal. Kadang kalau kita enggan terbuka dengan super-duper-mega luasnya dunia, kita cuman bisa liat sesuatu dari satu sudut pandang kita doang, tapi setelah kita coba gaining inputs as much as we can (salah satunya dengan bicara sama orang-orang), we can even multiply the perspectives. Then you gonna feel "ah, yes true", "well, it might be better by doing ...", "damn, it's fricking true!". Well, kalo orang dulu bilangnya membaca itu jendela dunia, kalo buat gue membaca itu gagang jendela, then how we can open it to see wider world is by talking to others, and then how to be noticed by that wider world we've already seen is by speaking things up, yesssh, to make it viral! Karena buat gue, dunia yang pengen kita liat ga sesimpel bisa baca terus udah, but the thing is apa yang kita baca, bisa kita implementsi, kita elaborasi, then kita suarakan dan kita bagi. Gitu~ Anjay markojay!

Achiever. Yha, I tend to push myself to the limit due to achieve what I have already set firstly to be achieved at the end. Dan lucunya, kayanya (atau emang bener) mostly temen-temen kampus gue begini semua, or maybe some that I know 'em really well. 
Taun ini mudah-mudahan bakalan jadi taun terakhir sebagai mahasiswai kedokteran, semester ini mudah-mudahan bakalan jadi semester ujung sebelum masuk ke hutan rimba belantara bernama koass. So far, ada beberapa temen dengan needs and wills yang kurang lebih sama. Achiever. Dibilang temen nongkrong, bukan. Karena sebenernya kita ga sering-sering amat nongkrong-nongkrong gaul. Dibilang temen satu hobi, juga apalagi. Mungkin basically passion kita sama-sama being actively involved in organizations ya. Tapi beda-beda organisasinya. Ada yang aktif bikin kajian di Ikatan Senat Mahasiswa Kedokteran (ISMKI), ada yang aktif di kepengurusan Tim Bantuan Medis-Calamus Scriptorius (TBM-CS), ada yang aktif belajar buat olimpiade hasemeleh, ada yang aktif di organisasi bangsa AIESEC, American Field Service (AFS) and stuffs. So various, indeed. Btw kita ber empat. Dari dulu dibilang geng (ala-ala) manis manja menggoda (ah, bisa aja. padahal emang bener hehe). Isinya kebetulan cewe semua, Bethari, Aruni, Nadia, sama gue. Menurut gue, mereka cewe tough dengan personalities background yang beda-beda, berimajinasi liar, wawasan luas sesuai takaran, kreatif ga ketolong, intelktual lumayan indehoy, dan yang jelas yaaa, ga bego-bego banget lah. Dari awal semester udah lumayan deket, sampe sekarang makin deket. Mereka salah 3 dari beberapa motivation-booster gue. Setiap kali gue males-malesan belajar, hemeh-hemeh kuliah, mereka yang bisa bikin gue balik mau belajar lagi. Mungkin mereka gitu juga, or not, well, whatever.

Basically, kita masing-masing punya hidup di dunia yang beda-beda pula. Bakal seganyambung itu kalo digabungin, jadwal juga padetnya minta ampun. Buat nyocokin jadwal buat sekedar ngumpul bareng aja ribet dan susahnya minta ampun. Anyway, kemaren terakhir kita kumpul bareng makan cantik manja menggoda gitu. Omongannya literally udah omongan mahasiswa semester akhir di kampus, omongan tentang masa depan hemeh-hemeh gitu deh pokoknya. Ngomongin IPK, ternyata none of us IPK nya tembus IPK cumlaude huhuhuhu, yang ada nyerempet-nyerempet doang.

By then, yang gue suka dari kemanis manjaan nan menggoda kita adalah selalu ada pathway-out di setiap masalah yang kita punya, kayak, selalu ada motivasi buat lebih lebih lebih sampe akhirnya achieve apa yang udah sama-sama kita targetin awalnya. hehe. 

After all stuffs have been written above, gue belom mention kalo sebenernya gue se-addicted itu sama make up dan perintilan hemeh-hemehnya. Awalnya gue gatau dari kapan dan gimana ceritanya, but the thing is now I am really into make up kits!

Like, for me going to make-up shops is simply like heaven. Seeing those eye-shadow colors, those blush colors, those various brushes, those magical foundations and concealer colors, and the most splendid thing is seeing thoseeeeeeee magical, tremendously-amazing, and beyond-addicted lipstick colorsssss! Like, I just can't barely stop the intention of always willing to have other new lipstick colors. My bae is now tryna to really understand how frustrated I will be if I couldn't get any color I am craving for, and how simply cheerful I will be if I could get one (or many)!. haha maaf soooooo exaggerating, tapi dia sekarang udah mulai memahami kok :)

Dia juga selalu terrified kaget gemes sebel gitu kalo gue bilang gue baru beli lipstick warna baru, "Ya ampun baru lagi!! yang kemaren emang udah abis? kamu makan lipsticknya sayang?"

well honey, it's not about habis-atau engga habis, it's about passion of having lipstick colors.

Sebenernya masih ada beberapa passion yang sebenernya bisa ditulis di sini tapi males aja hahaha. So segini dulu, mudah-mudahan yang baca bisa langsung coba self-refelction ke diri masing-masing, terus temuin passion nya apa, and kalian being passionate towards apa :)

See you very soon, cyber-peeps! XOXO

Figuring out the new clingy-me.

Hello Cyber-peeps. How you doing?

It's August 15th 2016 today. 

Hari ini hari kemerdekaan India,

H-2 Hari kemerdekaan Indonesia,

H+2 ditinggalin Zaldi pergi naik gunung,

and exactly 3 weeks before I am literally going 22.

anyway,

gue pengen nge-question out sisi manja gue yang practically has just figured out.

Thus, I'm gonna questioning:

"WHY?"

"HOW?"

"WHEN?"

Why, kenapa baru muncul? kenapa baru dateng? where has it fricking been?

How, gimana munculnya? gimana kerasanya?

When, kapan munculnya?

Ya, rasanya aneh. Sangat aneh. Rasanya seperti menemukan ruang baru di dalam 'aku', yang bahkan aku sendiri belum pernah menyinggahi. 

Then true, that knowing and understanding yourself is not as simple as doing personality test, till you got an 'ENTJ' or 'INFJ' or 'ISTP' and so on. 

Selama ini yang gue tau, Atika itu strong-willed, yet sometimes stubborn, a bit idealist, critical thinker, yet ain't a doer-kind-of-person, brave and a bit emotionless. But, as time goes by, I found other adjectives that may fill the still-blank-Atika.

* I knew that I was a coldhearted badass, and now I am trying to be less-badass by using my sense while living. Meaning, that now I'm pretty sure that I sense (or maybe tryna sense) everything from multiple sides of view. If it comes from my only side of view, then I will leave it 'untouched' or (maybe) remaining 'unfinished'.

well, bukan berarti gue se-coldhearted itu, tapi gue bukan orang yang suka bertele-tele dalam menyikapi sesuatu, apalagi masalah. Tambah lagi masalah orang lain, gue bakal se 'yaudahlah' itu sama masalah-masalah yang menurut gue bisa teratasi without me involving in. Gue bukan orang yang bersahabat dengan masalah. Once the problem comes, I will just encounter it as soon as possible then leave. And that's why gue pengen nyoba mainin sense buat ngadepin orang, ngadepin masalah, biar hidup terasa lebih hidup. Alright, make sense!

* Now I know that being a critical-thinker won't be enough without executing a tangible work. Nah gue belajar banyak dari organisasi-organisasi eksternal kampus. Gue ngerasa fulfilled banget sama temen-temen EB (Executive Board) AIESEC in Unlam. They are unique as fvck! Ada yang strict sama deadline jadi kerjaannya pumping out our adrenaline, ada yang kerjaannya ngitungin duit sama monthly reserve, ada yang kerjanya mepet-mepet deadline, ada yang perasaannya kaya kapas, ada yang kaya malaikat bantuin sana-sini, sama ada yang kerjanya letoy indehoy asoy tapi kelar. Anying emang. Gue belajar banyak dari personalities mereka each yang mereka bawa ke dunia keprofesionalitasan kerja, sampe gue sadar kalo punya pemikiran kritis bisa mebangun ideologi, tapi hanya akan menjadi sebatas ideologi tanpa kerja nyata!

* I knew I was a perceiver-kinda-little-girl, until I realized that in life, perceiving is never enough. We need to take action to create movements. Anjay markojay! 

Tapi bener, woy. kayak kalo perceive doang mah ya gitu-gitu aja, ga bakal gerak kalo gaada yang ngegerakin. Thus, I'd rather choose to take action (even the simplest one) just to move something static. Chaqeuuuup! hehe

Hmm, apa ya misalnya. Kaya dulu, gue seneng liat orang-orang hebat kaya Najwa Shihab, dr. Lula Kamal, Anggun C. Sasmi, Gayatri Wailisa, Ary Ginanjar Agustian, dr. Tompi, Lilyana Natsir, banyak deh. Dulu gue seneng liat, sampe akhirnya gue coba pelajarin biografinya (biar ga semuanya) sampe akhirnya timbul rasa 'pengen'. By then, 'perceive' is added by curiosity and willingness to take simple actions. 

* Dulu yang gue tau, Atika was beyond independent. 

Bahkan saking independent nya, gue apa-apa bisa sendiri, and tend to ignore inefficient-peoples' help.

But now, reflecting back to the very first point I was writing above, I keep questioning why, how and when did the dependent-me come?

well, maybe not a proper dependent, yet more likely to be "Clingy" or emotionally dependent. 

To be honest, this is the most shocking thing to be figured out btw, hehe. Gue seWAW itu dong kalo ternyata gue juga bisa clingy alias manja. 

Kalo sekarang pertanyaannya kenapa, gue gatau lah kenapa bisa manja

then kalo gimana, gue juga gatau gimana sampe akhirnya gue bisa manja

dan kalo kapan, gue gatau kapan gue mulai manja.

Tapi mungkin, Zaldi takes part in this. 

Sorry kalo konten postingan blog gue masih related to the last one, ga jauh-jauh dari pure happiness and so on. Tapi makin ke sini gue makin ngerti kalo simplicity for a pure happiness that is created by our lover is BEYOND VALUABLE!

Zaldi sesimpel itu, even simpler than any simple present tense. Hasemeleh. Apaan sih tik?! hehehehehe

anyway, kenapa gue bilang dia kaya takes part in this? karena sekarang gue sadar kalo to be in a relationship, meaning that you collaborate two people, two hearts, two minds with thousands thoughts inside. Bener kan?

So then gue tend to bikin irisan diantara lingkaran gue dan cowo gue. Irisan itu apa aja yang bisa nyatuin kita, bisa feeling (indeeeeeeed), bisa kesukaan, bisa emotions, bisa kebiasaan yang sama, bisa apa aja pokoknya yang nantinya bisa nyatuin lingkaran gue dan cowo gue. 

Buat gue, cowo gue heroic beyond his simplicity. Bisa diandelin banget, understand my needs and wills, sweet dengan takaran yang pas, tereceh sepanjang masa, dan yang pasti multiroles. Okay, ngomongin multiroles, dia bisa jadi siapa aja dan apa aja in everytime I want him to. Kayak dia bisa jadi supportive-secret admirer gue saat gue harus away bersibuk-sibuk ria. Dia bisa jadi supportive-best friend di kampus saat gue butuh temen dari segala temen. Dia juga bisa jadi powerful-savior-and guider yang bisa ngejagain dan ngasih gue guidance. Dia juga bisa jadi anxious-healer saat gue panik gedugupan mulai meledak-ledak karena sesuatu. Dia juga bisa jadi soul-relaxer saat gue butuh sentuhan spiritual, and surely his shoulder and he himself can be the most comfortable place for me to rely on, to be clingy to. Se enak itu buat senderan sambil merem-melekin mata karena semriwing nya angin, buat berkeluh kesah, buat cerita ina itu, buat dihasemeleh gemesin, buat manja-manjaaan. 

Bahkan tanpa harus diperjelaspun, dia salah satu tempat ternyaman buat gelendotan. Tsyaqeuuup!

Jadi, back to clingy, gue seneng dia bisa bantuin gue nemuin sisi clingy alias manja gue. Karena dengan gue berhasil nemuin sisi itu di gue, gue bisa lebih tau rasanya membutuhkan dan dibutuhkan, memberi dan diberi, mengandalkan dan diandalkan, mengusahakan dan diusahakan, mengerti dan dimengerti, menyayangi dan disayangi. 

lagi-lagi, gue ngerasa fulfilled, yes emotionally fulfilled!

Anyway, cerita sedikit tentang clingy-me baru-baru aja. Cowo gue secinta itu sama alam, sama gunung, sama pantai, sama hutan, sama tebing, sama apa lah itu yang berbau alam. iya gapapa, iya :)

Kebetulan gue sama dia orangnya lumayan sama-sama  mobile. Gue mobile urusan organisasi yang pindah-pindah dari satu tempat ke tempat lain, dan dia mobile dengan urusan mendaki gunung, jaga medis sana-sini, dll. So, sebenernya sama aja. Tapi masalahnya, setiap kali dia pergi dia unreachable gara-gara simply gaada sinyal di hutan syubidusyupapaw. Huffffty dufffty.

Hari ini hari ke-2 dia cabut buat pendakian merah putih (katanya jaga medis acara mapala fakultas lain) buat 4 hari ke depan. Ga biasanya gue se pengen tau itu dia kemana ngapain apalagi sampe mewek hasemeleh. Tapi itu lagi, karena gue nemuin clingy-me kalo lagi bareng dia, dan gue (tryna) lebih sensing, gue sering mewek kalo ditinggal. Yakali semalem gue mewek gara-gara ditinggal naek gunung, baru juga sehari. Tapi rasanya jauuuuuuuuh banget, mood ga ke boosted, males ngapa-ngapain, bawaannya nunggu kabar udah sampe mana doang. 

yha, that is just me being fricking clingy. Yash, emotionally dependent.

Take care, sweetypie. XOXO

Love,

Your clingy-Atika

Simplicity for a pure happiness

Hey! It’s Sunday, July 31^st 2016.

I was willing to write something about my joyful life also me and a guy who is currently fulfilling my every single day with disruptive love.

Why joyful life? Cz I simply value my life as a joyful thing God may owes me so far.

Hidup gue se-menyenangkan, se-berwarna dan se-valuable itu menurut gue. Alhamdulillah.

Ga dikit kok orang yang most of the time pengen punya hidup enak kaya orang lain, tapi buat gue, apa yang gue punya sekarang di hidup gue udah lebih dari cukup dan gue se-bersyukur itu aja bisa dikasih Tuhan kesempatan nyicipin apa yang Tuhan pinjemin ke gue lewat hidup gue.

Gue beyond happy punya keluarga hangat. Bapak yang suka bercanda tapi mostly jayus, yang baik ke semua orang tapi mostly dikelecein (re: dibegoin orang), Ibu yang forever-young yang selalu nodong gue cerita sampe akhirnya gue bisa otomatis cerita tiap hari, like literally tiap apapun yang gue lakuin, dan Idham yang gengsian parah tapi sayang sama mbaknya (kayanya gitu sih ya). Gue juga beyond happy punya keluarga di belahan dunia yang lain, yang selalu mau tau kabar gue, kabar study gue, kabar natural family gue, kabar Negara gue, dll. Mereka yang selalu buat gue ngerasa Italia masih selalu ada deket gue, or vice versa.

Gue bersyukur bisa punya apa yang gue punya sekarang, in terms of capability, competency, tendency buat selalu berkembang, berkembang dan berkembang, etc. By then, gue bisa ngerasain kalo hidup gue dinamis (since basically gue sebel sama apaupun itu yang statis). Intinya one of valuable thing I value the most in my life is DEVELOPMENT. Cz simply menurut gue hidup tanpa perubahan, tanpa perkembangan itu simply bukan hidup. Jadi ga seharusnya kita menghindari perubahan, but it seems more like create the change, move the change! (anjaaaaaaay). Kayak, gue sesuka itu ngebacot masalah beginian karena simply gue anaknya suka aja mem-persuade orang dan motivate orang supaya semangat akan value-value hidup gue bisa ada di orang-orang juga

The last but not least, salah satu yang buat gue bersyukur dan yang bakal gue elaborasi lebih luas lagi, gue seseneng itu dong punya masnya yang mudah-mudahan bakal selalu ada both physically and mentally buat gue (salah satunya). Masku ini temen sekelasku loh haha.

Jadi sebenernya ini entah namanya coincidence apa emang actually-destined. Gue juga ga sepenuhnya ngerti sama pathway hidup gue so far, yet I’m trying to. Gue heran aja kenapa temen sekelas gue bisa naksir gue (in terms of yang beda gender loh ya), vice versa, kenapa gue bisa naksir temen gue itu. Kayak, kalo temen sekelas kan uda tau gitu ya bobrok-bobroknya kelakuan di kelas tiap hari, dan kebetulan gue anaknya petakilan, bacot, vocal dan agak strict kalo things are not going as how they are supposed to be. Gue ga ngerti aja kenapa bisa sampe sini sekarang. Well, namanya Rizaldi btw. Biasa dipanggil Zaldi, Aldi, Sayang, Tayang, Hanyi, Hanyibe’, Amo’ dan panggilan-panggilan mencle lainnya. Padahal dulu, boro-boro manggil sayang, manggil dia by name aja jarang banget. Cuman kadang-kadang kita ketemu waktu gue jalan bareng anak-anak cowok kelas yang juga temen maennya Zaldi. Justru nih ya, gue jauh lebih deket sama temen cowok yang lain, orang ke kampus sering dijemput bareng, ngobrol lebiih intens sama mereka, becanda nyolot-nyolotan juga sama mereka. Nah, sama si Zaldi ini sejarang itu aja gue since anaknya juga introvert dan hemat ngomong. Cuman dari dulu ya ada beberapa event yang bikin kita bareng-bareng, kayak misalkan LDKM (Latihan Dasar Kepemimpinan Mahasiswa) di semester awal kuliah, kalo ini jauh dari kata naksir deh, serius. Gue nya yang dekil, jelek, rambut gagal ombre, apa lagi dia HAHA CANDA SAYAANG, botak, item, kurus udah ah ga ngerti lagi. Tapi Zaldi ketua kelompok gue, jadi dari sana kayanya gue sama dia PERNAH ngobrol, PERNAH ya bukan SERING. Soalnya kalo kita ga satu kelompok LDKM mungkin sampe sekarang kita ga pernah ngobrol (?).

Terus as time goes by, kita jalan masing-masing dong. Dia siapa gue siapa, we both had our own lives to live that time. Sampe taun lalu kita mulai dicengin gara-gara dia bawain jalangkote (re: makanan kayak pastel dari Sulawesi Selatan) ke rumah gue malem-malem. Tapi ya biasa aja abis itu jalan masing-masing lagi. Udah nih, sampe akhir taun lalu kita makin intens dicengin karena mungkin terlihat makin deket (?). 

Kalo ditanya awalnya kenapa bisa deket suer gue ga ngerti harus jawab apa. Ga dikit orang yang nanyain, kenapa bisa, gimana awalnya, dan pertanyaan menye-menye seputar itu, gaada satupun yang puas sama jawaban gue. Ya gimana ya, abis semuanya happened as what it was! 

Lucu aja, soalnya to love or being loved somehow doesn’t need a concrete ‘WHY’. ANJAAAAY, bacot kan gue.

Masih akhir taun, kita sering ngobrol biasa kaya temen biasa yang masih jaim (huhu sedih kalo inget dia sekarang gimana). Malem taun baru kita bareng sama temen-temen kelas, awal tahun juga makin intens ngobrol, ketawa-ketawa bareng, cari makan bareng, belajar bareng sekalian modusin gue (HEHE). Gue inget dong, awal-awal temen-temen kelas tau Zaldi jalan berdua gue langsung pada syok, ga dikit woyyyyyy yang abis itu langsung ngechat gue nanyain itu bener apa kaga -____-. Se un-believable itu apa ya? Huftt. Yauda kan abis itu gue masih sibuuuk banget sama urusan organisasi-organisasi gue, gue cabut ke conferences di Jogja, Padang, Jakarta, Jakarta lagi, Jakarta lagi, dia orang terakhir yang gue liat sebelum berangkat (re: nganterin ke airport). Tapi masih temen loh, masih temen. Udah makin kesini makin sering belajar bareng, yang biasanya kalo mau ujian blok belajarnya masing-masing, dari semester lalu belajarnya bareng terus. Makin kesini makin intens, sampe sekarang deh HEHEHE. Tapi ya, menurut gue sih who we were yesterday sama who we are today are not giving us significant differences, btw. 

Dia ya Zaldi temen sekelas gue yang anteng, gue ya Tika yang petakilan di kelas, cuman bedanya sekarang how people perceive us aja as couple (anjayyy), yang sebenernya gue ngeliat Zaldi-dan-gue adalah temen deket yang saling bantu, saling motivasi belajar, saling nyemangatin di kampus. DI KAMPUS YAAAA. Kalo di luar kampus yaa jelas gue ngeliat Zaldi-dan-gue a way moreeee complex than cuman nyemangatin doang.

Zaldi yang dulu gue kenal hemat ngomong dan kinda boring, sekarang jadi partner-in-doing-almost-everything gue. Ternyata kesininya ga hemat ngomong dan boring kok. Dia anak INFJ, gue ENTJ. Dari sana aja tau kan, siapa yang introvert siapa yang extrovert. Orang buta juga kalo bisa denger obrolan gue sama Zaldi bisa tau siapa yang introvert siapa yang extrovert. Dari sini juga gue bisa ngerasa seneng ada dia, gue yang extrovert, petakilan sana-sini, gue yang thinker, gue yang emotionless, bisa pretty much di cover sama dia yang baik hati dan sangat penyayang. Lucunya lagi, Intuisi sama Judging-skill kita sering jalan bareng. Sering deh, sering banget. Itu juga somehow yang menurut gue bisa balancing perbedaan personality gue sama Zaldi. Iya, dia Introvert, tapi bukan berarti dia pendiem. Dia cuman ga suka ngomong sama lingkungan yang menurut dia ga fit-in buat dia untuk ngomong, dan dia bakal ngomong bahkan bacot dan berisik sama lingkungan yang emang menurut dia pas. Kayak misal, Zaldi tipe cowok yang duduk di pojok kanan belakang kelas dan jarang ngomong, tapi sejauh ini gue bisa liat sisi luar dalem depan belakang serong kanan kiri dia dari hasil ngobrol kita, bahkan gue makin tau how he percieves life, etc. Jadi, jangan pada miss-understood ya, orang introvert ga selamanya pendiam, hanya saja CENDERUNG pendiam. Terus ‘Feeling’ nya Zaldi juga sangaaaaaaaaaaaat balancing ‘Thinker’ nya gue. Gue sadar betul kok, gue orangnya stubborn, strong-willed, planners, and detail. Ga jarang gue ngerasa gue jahat dan tega (in terms of gue cold-hearted dan ga suka bertele-tele). Di sini, Zaldi bisa ngisi apa yang gue ga bisa punya. Sama dia, gue ngerasa muchhhhhhhhhh fulfilled. Gue ngerasa ‘punya’, gue belajar gimana rasanya bahagia dalam kesederhanaan, rasanya bahagia bersama kebahagiaan orang lain, rasanya saling melengkapi, saling meluruskan. Zaldi juga ngajarin gue how simplicity hugely-valued in his life, and now mine too. By becoming what we are to be seen as what we are, we will get a pure happiness. He taught me so. Zaldi juga a very good-listener so far, biarpun mungkin ga selalu ngasih advice, dia selalu dengerin dan bikin gue senyaman itu buat cerita, bahkan dia diempun bikin gue lega. So far, dia jadi tempat favorit gue buat ngelempar tawa bahagia gue, tawa bangga gue, tangis kecewa gue, bahkan kalo gue keselpun dia juga selalu bisa nenangin gue, parah. Tapi jangan salah, kalo Zaldi kesel, gue matung et causa takut.

Sekarang juga gue makin tau dia gimana, dia makin tau gue gimana. Gue ngerti kenapa temen-temen bilang dia tukang ketut, karena emang dia sesering kentut sembarangan itu. Bobrok-bobrok nya dia juga gue makin tau, dia juga bahkan makin tau tempat paling sering gue jerawatan dimana, berapa biji juga. Ya gitu pokoknya. 

Briefly, gue mau bilang kalo never stop believing, unless you won’t see that pure happiness is real.

Try to see yourself as how you see other people, never see yourself better than others. Never look down. NEVER

“To fulfill and being fulfilled is one of indescribable sensation I am feeling now, by then you will give something and really get even more. Because sharing is caring, caring is loving, so sharing is loving.”

I love living a challenging life as what I am owning right now, it is like a roller coaster that drives me up to the top and falls me to the ground. But I’d be pleased if I’m going with you thru it all.

Ti amo, amore mio!

With love,

Atika

Why Always Youths? Think!

Taj Mahal, baby!

Taj Mahal baby!

I know this will be a super late post of mine, since we went to Agra to see Taj Mahal in couples of weeks ago, and even one month ago. It was precisely on July 11th.
I bet that everyone might know about Taj Mahal when we talk about India. So that's why I was totally
happy to be in this place where people know and wanna go there as well.
There were plenty of interns with me.
It took roughly 5-6 hours of bus riding from Jaipur to Agra. The trip was quite nice, I had some super nice talks with Andy, the guy who sat next to me on that bus and also with Andrei and Ismail behind us. It was quite fun.
I slept like most of the time but still, I enjoyed it so much.
As we got there, we saw some parts of the city, It was pretty much the same as other cities. I guessed that there will not be other special things except Taj Mahal and Agra Fort. So, we bet that it was pretty much similar with Pisa which only has the Pisa Tower as a special sightseeing.

As soon as we got there, we entered Taj Mahal by 750INR. It was amazing. The building was so awesomely huge. I've been there babies!
Here are some of our photos...............

Jana and me

Diana, Antonella and Me

Susann, Me, Jana and Gokhan

Jana, Me and Susann

Never regret this trip, was so happy to be in a trip with them.

Namaste from India

Hi everyone.............

Meet you guys again here on my super late post about my another journey to India by my lonesome. 

So this has been my second long trip abroad without my parents. 

Anyway, I'm doing one of AIESEC project here in AIESEC Jaipur India.

I surfed for many of AIESEC projects that came over my email every single day that completely make me so extremely dizzy of them.

So there were 2 final options of them; which were one project from India and another one was from Italy. I argued my parents about this yet we finally found the brightest pathway out on pointing the project that they thought it might be suitable for me.

Yea, so I chose WAR Project which stands for War Against Rape Project from AIESEC Jaipur India.

You guys just can imagine how challenging and exciting this project will be. Basically it's because I like human right and women empowerment stuffs so much, so that's why I think this one was so ME!

Well now let's talk about the journey itself. So, I took my flight from Jakarta-Kuala Lumpur-Delhi-Jaipur.

It was pretty long and tiring journey yet I enjoyed it so much.

The interesting thing was it has been my 2nd experience to sleepover in the airport. So I made an appointment with a Colombian girl, named Diana that we're going to meet up at the baggage claim on Delhi Airport. We made it, we met up and we stayed together there till our next-day flight from Delhi to Jaipur.

It was kinda fun to meet a person who you never know before to stay together the whole night.

The next day, which was on July 2nd we took a flight from Delhi to Jaipur. We were in the same plane as well, actually also with another girl from Czech Republic, named Eliska. We went to our intern house, it was in Bani Park, pretty much in the center of the city.

The most common public transportation that's pretty safe to take is tuktuk (Bajaj). Anywhere we go we can take tuk tuk, as a result now I have bunches of friends of tuk tuk drivers. They're all funny.

As you're here as a foreigner, you'll get such most common questions asked to you; 

"Hi, what's your name?"

"You come from where?"

"What city from?"

"Where you live here?"

"Until when you will be here?"

"wfhjalijariojaeiofmjadklfnarrughadjvnadvjn"

I got them thousands per each day.

Welcome to India!

Now is about our intern house. So basically, I don't say that now I'm having the best experience with the best quality of life, the best house and the best for everything.

I have to live in a basement of a flat, I share the room with other 7 interns; 

*a Colombian girl, Diana

*a Turkish girl, Ceren

*an Italian girl, Antonella

*a Czechs girl, Elishka

*Me (have a bed on the corner)

*two Egyptian guys (in front of my bed), Ahmed and Yusuf

*a Moroccan guy, Ismail.

So, Let's be family then! 

It was so fucking awkward, you know when you have to share your room with the people you have never known or even met them before. At the very beginning we didn't even talk to each other, we were so freaking quiet. But as time goes by, I started to make some fun and light conversations with them, and we started to be click to each other, especially me with Antonella and Diana. They're both older than me, so we're just like sisters.

So, it was kinda shocking when you realize that now you're going to live for the next 6 months in this kinda basement you've never expected before. All I did was only complaining and continued complaining as hell.

They totally gave me this shit. 

This basement was worse before I started to fire and angry to the AIESEC people in Jaipur. We only have fans above our beds which you only can survive with (in this extremely hot weather), we don't even have beds, they're woods. We sleep on a 5 cm wide wood, there's no even a blanket and pillows. We have only one bathroom for 8 people, we don't have any brooms, mops, and even trash bin here. 

What kind of bedroom are you giving us?

Well that was my very first shocking day.

But I tried to survive in this new kinda life and I tried to look at this experience from my positive side of view.

Because I really believe that if you look at something positively, you'll get it the same.

WHAT YOU'LL GET IS WHAT YOU'VE GIVEN.

So it's all about karma.

Well, I was not the only one who was complaining about this kinda accommodation and stuffs. But I won't waste my time (that I supposed to enjoy) only for complaining and complaining. Things to be complained won't be last. Believe me.

Today, July 18th is my 16th day here, and I'm enjoying every single thing I get and I experience here. I swear to you guys that I'm now enjoying every single time, every single moment, every single things I get here. I fell in love with this country and the stuffs it has.

I tried not to be too keen of these things, I mean I tried to be a very enjoy and easy person as much as I could. I won't complain about anything anymore, all I wanna do is now enjoying my time here.

Because I know that I will not live here forever, so I don't really give a shit on the facilities that I supposed to get but I don't. 

The point is, I won't complain to have better and more facilities as mine in my real house in Indonesia, but I will do one thing, I won't pay the same amount as other guys who live upstairs, who have much more better facilities and ambiance as a place to live in.

That's it, guys.

The thing that I only conclude from this situation is....................................

"Always be thankful, it will surely brings you another sense of happiness"

"Try to look at something that you don't like from your positive side of view"

"Try to be mature enough to face every single situation in your life, it will teach you something new"

"Don't ever say that you have a bad experience on something, it's just different"

"The only one who can decide how your experience will be is YOU, either good or different"

"Enjoy every single time, every single moment of your life, YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE"

"Don't complain too much, all you need to do is only LIVE YOUR LIFE as creative as you can"

Feeling extremely happy to be able to share these things. Got my super amazing life tho. Thank God for all of these things. Alhamdulillahirrobbil'alamin.

Hope this post helps anyone who's confuse on deciding something on their lives. 

Namaste from Jaipur, India.

From India, with love!

A Holly Holiday of Ours

So guys, what's on your mind when you hear such a holly word like ...................... HOLIDAY??

You must be feel such super splendid feelings of happiness, joyfulness, blessed, an so on. Terlebih kalo lo pada adalah anak FK, yang konon katanya jarang banget punya waktu buat liburan (alright, so this is what I'm feeling exactly).

Konon katanya juga, anak-anak FK pada kuper, jarang bisa ngajak dan diajak jalan.
anak-anak FK nge date nya cuman sama buku doan tiap hari.
anak-anak FK temennya itu-itu doang.
anak-anak FK mah boro-boro mau pacaran, luangin waktu buat refreshing aja susah minta ampun.

Okay, so those are some salty people's comments of what a medical student really is.
But wait, it's not one-hundred-percent true, palls.
At the very beginning, I was one of them. I mean one of those judgers. But slowly I can make those salty comments turn sweeter. Yang jalanin gue kok, yang ngerasain gue. Ternyata komen-komen orang di luar sana ga semuanya bener. Asal kita bisa bagi waktu aja sih :)

Okay, yang tadi sekedar curhat yaaaa.
Jadi klimaks ceritanya adalah in a part I'm about to write below, sebentar lagi.................................

Most of anak-anak FK bakal girang setengah mampus kalo denger kata LIBURAN di tengah-tengah jadwal ujian praktikum, ujian skills lab, ujian blok, ujian osce, tutorial, bahkan jadwal KTI mereka. Maybe I could slightly conclude that 'mau libur sehari apa dua hari, yang penting itu namanya libur' (showing hopeless faces).
Jadi, gue sama temen-temen lagi punya beberapa hari (I mean lebih dari satu-dua hari) libur, while the others are so busy with their finals hahahahaha. Sebenernya belom liburan sih, masih a holiday-soon-to-be. Soalnya tar tanggal 11 masih ada kinda exam gitu.

Hari pertama-kedua-ketiga libur ga ngapa-ngapain, itung-itung bisa bed rest sekalian perbaikan gizi selama kuliah waktu itu. Tapi hari-hari setelahnya udah pada bingung mau ngapain, saking free nya. Biasanya pada kebingungan nyuri-nyuri waktu istirahat sama makan, saking sibuk dan ga bisa ditinggalnya belajar. AAAH LELAAAAH.

This is what we did on the first days of holiday 

Sampe suatu hari we planned to go to somewhere (that we used to be 'we dont know' so much). And after taking hours of thingking, we got an idea to go to Waterboom in my city (it's kinda on the suburb on my city actually). We made plans, we told each of us for coming, we were soooooooo happy to the sky and back.

That day (exactly yesterday, January 7th 2014).

Some of us went there by cars and others by motorcycles. I made plans with my close friends, hopping they will be coming as me. But unfortunatelly not all of them were so. The guys coming were just me, Zaki, Acid, and Winda. Echa and Dede weren't.
We had a lotta fun, super fun I mean.

I was on Keken's car. There were Keken (of course), Yudha, Bella, Memes, Abu, Me, Popon and Zaki inside. We laughed for things, we chilled, we did jokes, we gossiped things (as what we usually do).
We arrived pretty late gara-gara nungguin Abu sang guest star.

We entered, then................................................ Taaaaaaa-daaaaaa! we found Acid inside with his super wet outfit due to swim. Luar biasa!! dasar Sorbente :3

We put our clothes off, then went directly to wahana-wahana di sana. haaha
We tried Twister boom, slider boom, and many others.
We entered at around 11 and went home at around 16.

Again, We had lotta fun there! We refreshed! Chilling out togheter with jokes! So fun....................

Here we are....... Cheers...

The girls

my Sorbente! 

Regards,

A holiday seeker, Atika